Ugggghhhh, what a sarcastic sentence to follow. Easy to say but difficult to do :( but at this moment, I do need to force this sentence to be my friend, my closest friend. It is dedicated to those who played me around and who thought I am just a nice doll to play with. hugshugshugs.
To those who gave me feelings and left me behind without notice, you DID great. I feel broken inside and out up to now. You had succeeded in digging two deep holes inside of mine and pretended like nothing happens. What a great job you DID!!!
Those years I've spent just thinking that you could find me and show me the same feelings I had are GONE. Such a long time to waste. It's not just a matter of second, minute or hour. It's about days, months and years I've been wasting by hoping you were having the same feeling like I do have for you.
But, hellooooooowww reality approaches me by saying wake-up girl. See how those two persons changed now and how they treat you like nothing ever happened. I keep asking "Is there something wrong?" and They keep answering "nothing". The word nothing is not really reflecting how they treat me. They even think that I am not really exist by ignoring my chit-chat, in fact, they are replying others. The most horrible thing that they DID was to show off me their pretty monkeys linked to their neck. COME ON, dudes! will you both grow up a bit???
Were that both of you meant by NOTHING. I will do appreciate and accept the condition that you both belong to others if you had treated me not to special, but just as usual. I will do let you both go if you weren't treat me like I am not exist. So sorry, If I really need to remove or block you out of my way. At least, It's the only way I can do to save my heart from pieces.
I DO sometimes check out your condition secretly even though it is definitely NOT a good thing to do. But, I will try my best by having positive thought that we AREN'T MEANT to be and It's good to see you live your live well. I also hope that if we meet each other ONEDAY,(which I don't want it to happen) just pretend that we never know each other. I think It's the best solution for both of US.
So still, in my opinion Avoiding you is the only way out. If once you were thinking of why I could do that, then the answer is let me LIVE WITH THAT!!!! So, so long and I really wish that OUR book is really CLOSED from now on.
dLovelyTriE a.k.a MawarE
