They're just children :D

Experience these kinds of thing are one of the colorful moments in my life;

I was really excited to wear new glasses until one of my students told me:

Zahra bertanya: "Bu Guru, Ibu ganti kacamata ya?"

Aq menjawab: "Iya, sayang. Bagus tidak?"

Zahra menjawab: "Bagus sihhhhh, tapi....."

Aq bertanya: "Tapi kenapa?"

Zahra menjawab: "Aq lebih suka kacamata yang kemarin, bu. Yang warnanya pink."

Makin penasaran: "Memang yang ini kenapa?"

Zahra menjawab: "Abis yang ini belang-belang kaya macan tutul."

Tinggallah diri-ku dengan perasaan bingung tak menentu,,lebayyyyyy :D

I was busy giving scores to my students and I asked one of my students to help me delivering the book to her friends.

Aq bertanya: "Alifia,bantu Ibu bagikan buku-buku ini ya."

Alifia menjawab: "Iya, bu."

Alifia pun mulai memanggil nama teman-temannya: "Fauzan, Jeremi, Nabila, dst, sampailah pada bang-bang."

Yang dipanggil tidak sadar dan merasa.

Alifia pun tetap memanggil tapi tetap tak ada respon.

Alifia: "Bang-bang (setengah teriak), budek banget siyh, bang-bang (sambil menghampiri orangnya)."

Dia menjawab: "Enak aja budek, emangnya dari tadi kamu manggil?"

Alifia menjawab: "Iya tahu, aku panggil bang-bang ga denger-denger."

Dia pun menjawab: "Nama aku Bambang tahu bukan bang-bang, huweeeeeekk."

Aku pun sebagai pendengar cuma bisa geleng-geleng kepala, :D

What If ????

Two words combined altogether which gives one horrible meaning along with the terrifying feelings just to think about it, yeahh, WHAT IF?

WHAT IF you're the one destined to be mine?

WHAT IF I'd lost you by the time we meet?

WHAT IF I've misinterpreted you on my own?

WHAT IF you're nothing but trouble for me?

WHAT IF I'll never have the courage to see your face?

WHAT IF I do hate you so much?

WHAT IF I do love you deeply?

WHAT IF I do obsessed about you?

WHAT IF you have found your love which is not mine?

WHAT IF I will never ever able to forget you?

WHAT IF I'll bring this regret with me all the time?

These are only some of the inconvenient form of questions that left unanswered. So, how bout you? Any "WHAT IF" question in your life?

U know that it is you, MAWARE...

Oopss, I DID it again!!!!!!

HOW COME

I sent him a message,,,

I hoped him to reply my message instantly,,,

I imagined him to ask me a question even my condition,,,

I would send him another reply,,,

I got this butterfly on my stomach AGAIN,,,

HOW CRUEL

This feeling can be every time i got something related to u...

This nerve can go wrong every time i got lil communication with u...

This head can think of anything bout u all the time...

This heart can beat inside of me every time i think and see ur name...

This emotion can ruin my following days by just having one small contact...

This bridge can fall even though i've made it for the last five years..

Ohhh,,, NOOOOO...

Why can't I control myself bout things like u????

Why can't I let u go away???? shoooooo shoooo >.<

Why can't I free my mind off u????

Why can't I forget u in every single minute of my life????

Live with tHat @_@

        Ugggghhhh, what a sarcastic sentence to follow. Easy to say but difficult to do :(  but at this moment, I do need to force this sentence to be my friend, my closest friend. It is dedicated to those who played me around  and who thought I am just a nice doll to play with. hugshugshugs.

     To those who gave me feelings and left me behind without notice, you DID great. I feel broken inside and out up to now. You had succeeded in digging two deep holes inside of mine and pretended like nothing happens. What a great job you DID!!!

     Those years I've spent just thinking that you could find me and show me the same feelings I had are GONE. Such a long time to waste. It's not just a matter of second, minute or hour. It's about days, months and years I've been wasting by hoping you were having the same feeling like I do have for you.

     But, hellooooooowww reality approaches me by saying wake-up girl. See how those two persons changed now and how they treat you like nothing ever happened. I keep asking "Is there something wrong?" and They keep answering "nothing". The word nothing is not really reflecting how they treat me. They even think that I am not really exist by ignoring my chit-chat, in fact, they are replying others. The most horrible thing that they DID was to show off me their pretty monkeys linked to their neck. COME ON, dudes!       will you both grow up a bit???

     Were that both of you meant by NOTHING. I will do appreciate and accept the condition that you both belong to others if you had treated me not to special, but just as usual. I will do let you both go if you weren't treat me  like I am not exist. So sorry, If I really need to remove or block you out of my way. At least, It's the only way I can do to save my heart from pieces. 

     I DO sometimes check out your condition secretly even though it is definitely  NOT a good thing to do. But, I will try my best by having positive thought that we AREN'T MEANT to be and It's good to see you live your live well. I also hope that if we meet each other ONEDAY,(which I don't want it to happen) just pretend that we never know each other. I think It's the best solution for both of US.

     So still, in my opinion Avoiding you is the only way out. If once you were thinking of why I could do that, then the answer is let me LIVE WITH THAT!!!! So, so long and I really wish that OUR book is really CLOSED from now on.

 dLovelyTriE a.k.a MawarE

Whaddduuupp 3 ??

Wow,,,whaddduuupp 3??

Here I am with bunch of things to do. Not to mention I'm busy but I do have not much of leisure time to be ME. How come??? perhaps it's the consequence of thing I'm taking into right now.

Need more time to organize everything,,,need more energy to burn these calories,,,need more bravery to gain this heavy laziness,,,need more people to support me to get through this,,, need more fighting spirit to block all the obstacle in front of me,,,need more in everything.

Life is a circle where u have to be more up to it. It will not follow you but you're the one who needs to follow it. Gotta get through this. I'm sure I can make it. It's just a piece of cake,,:)) as long as I keep this positive thoughts in my mind.

Be grateful of what I'm achieving now cos perhaps there are lots of people who hasn't got the chances to be ME. Just like Mia said, It's hard to be ME myself,,,love this sentence anyway.

So..see you on the next destination and perhaps you can catch me ^0^

aNothEr STUPIDITY of mine,,,, :((

Today, i woke up and realize that i've missed ur birthday on the last December 18. So, I decided to send u a message. I don't know Why it took me long enough to think over bout the words i should use. So, i wrote u a message,,

the simple one,,"HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!! :)

I don't know where i can get the nerve to send u the message AGAIN. Of course, I have this regret burdening me,, I kept thinking bout those silly imagination of yours, kept thinking whether u still remember my number or not, kept thinking what response will u give me, and all the stupid things i can imagine. :((

And finally, i realized that it took u an hour to respond my message,,, i don't know for sure whether u took ur time to recognize my number or not too soon to reply it. Just a simple answer that u gave but really made me feel the butterfly in my stomach. What's so special bout; "HAHAHAH,,,,TENGKYUUUUU MAWAREEEE!! :)"

Well, I'm glad to know that u r still remember me... but i decided not to send u any other replies cos i don't want to have any further communication with u... not because i hate u but i will hate myself even worse that u can ever imagined.

So, sorry for throwing u aside of me cos it kills me just to see u out there.

I wish u know that ur simple answer can ruin whole self defense i've built years ago.. just through ur simple reply...

I definitely sure that u know how I feel for u yet u can do NOTHING otherwise being so ignorant... I just want to tell u that it hurts me so bad,,, I"d prefer to get yelled rather than to get ignored...

This is what happened every time i got this WRONG nerve around me,,, such called STUPIDITY,,, i really wanna scream out loud just to relief my burden inside,,,,

HUUUUUU,,,I SHOULDN'T HAVE SENT U ANY MESSAGE,,

_Maware_

My bestfriend's wedding

Wooooowwww,,,,,

Today....December 18th,2009...my best friend, Vie, finally gets married. I feel so happy for her happiness,,which is also filled with green as the wedding theme...

I know that she's been dreaming of this day to come to her life.

I know that this man whom she got married into is all she ever wanted to be hers.

I know that all the suffer she got lately gives her strength to have this precious day.

I know that all of her time, thoughts, effort and pray are worth to wait until GOD answer her prayers.

what a weird couple they are!!!! :))

I have all the supporting ideas for the above statement which I can't tell you,,,hihihi

but somehow,,I am AMAZED of what they are achieving today..

all I can say is I am sooooooo Happy for u both and wish u a wonderful,long lasting marriage and happily ever after of course,,,

Notes: thank GOD you did NOT take a bath this morning otherwise we will get wet just because of you,,,hohohoho ^_^